It used to be because I was going to my local UU church, getting inspired for the week and realigning with my Higher Being. Since I've no car currently, Sunday means something different. Well, it means the same, but I must accomplish it differently.
God is in Everything and lives Everywhere. That's my thought. The challenge is to follow through with that thought consistently and translate it into action. How does this apply to Catch-Up Sunday? There is always something that could use a little extra attention; the dishes, the laundry, honey do's, music practice, straightening, yard work...a small list. Looks a lot like I'm planning to work on the day of rest, eh? But, if God is in Everything and lives Everywhere, then any of those activities could bring me closer to the Divine, depending on my attitude.
Today I'm attempting to Catch-Up on my daily A to Z blogs. Since I started late I'm behind by several days. Can I manage to write posts for 'c,d,e,and f' all in one day? I don't know, but I'm going to give it a try, cuz that's what Catch-Up day is all about.
A few more thoughts on catching up in reference to life:
I spent my years from age 11-19 almost totally focused on music. I play the cello, and those years were a slew of concerts, lessons, contests, camps, and tours around the state, country, and Europe. I didn't 'party' in high school. I worked hard to keep my grades up so that I could participate in all the awesome things music brought into my life. When I wasn't doing school work, I was practicing, rehearsing with a group or performing. Don't misunderstand, I did have friends and time off. But there wasn't a lot of wasted time.
Unfortunately, I was totally burned out by second semester of Freshman year at University.
I went home and started to play catch-up. Catch up on time wasters, on frivolity and fun outside of music. This was all night role playing sessions, spiritual exploration full of drama and mystery and amazement (but really very surface), and the fumbling that goes along with young adulthood. I had no idea how to function in the 'real' world as I'd been an interesting type of sheltered. Without being a part of a symphony or a quartet there was suddenly no structure.
I had my first beloved child at 23 years old, well before any of my other friends. I was alone in this trek. I mean, my friends were there, but I was the only mother in the group. My life changed suddenly and drastically. All of my dreams and goals had to change. I was okay with that, after a brief adjustment, but while my friends were 'partying' I was home with my baby boy. It wasn't until I started homeschooling him, at almost 30 years old, that I had a bit of freedom for myself again. He was more autonomous, thus I had more freedom. I started pursuing a long time goal- being a rock star. Lol. I laugh now only because I realize that this phase, too, was a sort of catch-up game. I could feel my youth slipping away, and felt the time in which I could accomplish all my dreams was short. I was racing and rushing to make something happen. I didn't really stop to consider if it was what I wanted. I just felt the need to climb the metaphorical mountain and stake my claim, work toward my own immortality.
Clearly, I'm not a rock star.
But that's the dream I was pursuing with my ex-husband. In the process of my 12 year relationship with my ex (10 of which was marriage) I lost a lot of myself. Some of it knowingly and willingly. Relationship requires compromise. Some of it unwittingly in the effort to please or impress my husband. I guess I was playing catch up in terms of emotional maturity.
Now that the relationship is over, I find I'm playing a new level of the catch-up game. I'm catching up with myself. I'm dragging the river for lost pieces and revisiting the ones that never left. I'm rediscovering who I've become, and who I want to be.
So, writing 4 posts on a Sunday seems like a nice piece of my Catch-Up pie. Writing, in general, is quickly becoming my way of catching-up with my life. I aim to carry it forward as a large piece of the foundation of my Beginning Again. I'm confident that in the process I will play Catch-Up with new dreams, and God as well.
T.G.I.S(unday)
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